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I am thinking about buying a pen tablet. One of those amazing fancy ones you can take to a coffee shop and look aloof and hip while you scribble on it rather than a napkin... or say an actual sketchbook. I want to have one so I can put a rendering program of some sort on it and learn how to make my clay doodles digital. I need the tablet since my kids want to be up in my space/face/business while I make things. Tonight, I had a 5 year old climb on my lap at 5 pm and declare that she needed a cuddle just as I started the process of making a set of wings for some lucky unknown doll maker or doll costume designer. As soon as I put my stuff away

I think I know what I am doing and then I see a gallery filled with amazing work that is so far ahead of where I am... that I am humbled. I try not to feel humiliated and embarrassed, but I think that is part of being human. I would rather feel humbled and strive to be better, but I think that the embarrassment bubbling in my belly forces me to work harder and longer. I wish I could just create for the fun of it all the time and let the jealousy go, but I do not know how to do that yet. I have this fear that it will happen when I am too feeble to hold a tool or see the medium. I guess I will just live in my mind at that point and imagine vist

You ever move so many times that you forget how you stay organized? Yeah... it has been two years since we purchased this house and you know what... we need another room for ME. I need a working studio that I can close the door on and let stay messy until I finish a job. I am actually thinking of buying a tiny house to plop into the back yard as a studio. It needs to be at least 10x8. I am thinking that a tall shed would work but, would need to be insulated. I am so tall that I would have to be a custom one that has the perfect amount of head space and storage... gah... planning this seems like it would be fun, but I gotta find the right spot